Happy Birthday My Sweet Boy !

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Mengasihani.

Alhamdulillah. Hari ni Muhammad Zaim dah 3tahun.

Ibu doakan Zaim membesar dengan sehat. Jadi anak yang baik. Hamba yang taat. Berjaya dunia dan akhirat. Insha Allah.

Aku ingat lagi hidup tanpa Zaim, 2 tahun lepas kawen. It is too plain. Sunyi weihh. Bukan tu jep. Pilu jangan kate la since I'm having twice miscarriage. It's not easy. Setiap kali peyed menjenguk je aku akan nangis. Mase tu bukan la berharap sangat nak dapat anak tapi sebab hati selalu terhiris dengan pressure dari orang luar. 

Lepas 2 tahun hidup plain, Allah has answering my prayer. Alhamdulillah, 9 month after that muncul la Zaim penyeri hidup kami. Punyer la happy tak terkate. In fact that happiness continuing until today. Walaupun, the motherhood journey is quite challenging, but our small house is always full of colors. Plus, we have our little princess, Maryam Zahra.

Orang selalu kate anak pertame tu selalu special. For me, yup. Aku setuju. But, it doesn't mean Zaim has major attention. Tak, tak. I have enough love to delegate to all my children. Zaim is special because, having him is like receiving a gift from Allah. I pray harder than ever for him, then unexpectedly Allah answering my prayer. I feel the love Allah has send through Zaim for me. Thank you Allah.

Time kasih jugak kat Zaim sebab you have give me so much happiness. Makes me learn what is my real priority. Ajar ibu erti sabar. I like when we dance together, even it is out of rhythm. I like when you talk to me, even ibu tak paham satu hape pon. Whenever you throw a tantrum, but I manage to control my anger, I feel like a winner. Bile ibu marah Zaim buat muke, geram tapi geli hati.

Thank you sayang for accepting me like you do now. I pray our love will last forever. My pray and love will always be with you.

Ibu love you Zaim.

Love,

Ibu

Miracle of Musibah

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Mengasihani.

Well, couple of months ago, our family was hit by an incident that none of us thought it might be happen. Ujian Allah yang tak disangka-sangka. Innalillahiwa'inailaihirrojiun atas musibah yang kami terima. Semoga Allah ampunkan dosa-dosa kami sekeluarga. Amin.

Alhamdulillah, the musibah brings us closer and I notice that everyone are staying up close and no one leave the circle. I'm so glad that Allah keeps everyone in a very calm and realistic peaceful mind. And, even at the very critical time, my whole family are being very supportive. Ya Allah, terima kasih atas musibah ini. It's like a wake up call to everyone.

It's not about the musibah that I'm fussy about to tell. It's about how sad I am looking at my both parents, whom struggling to accept and swallow all this things. It is really broken to heard mama crying over the phone, let it out all her sorrow. Seeing abah hiding his tears going through all this. It's really broke me up. I'm not gonna lie.

There is one time, I pray Allah to turn back time so that we could fix whatever we do wrong so that this things won't happen. Unfortunately, we can't turn back time. What we can do is just face the fact. And, no judge.

Nak cite panjang2 pun pasal ni aku tak reti or it might be terlalu mengaibkan. Aku harap entry aku kali ni boleh remindkan aku tentang insiden ni in long terms. I wish that I still can read in my oldies ages so that I could remember all of this. I wish I could recall the moment one by one for the lesson. 

Aku harap takde sape-sape yang akan sia-siakan sesiapa dalam family since everyone are so supportive and leave no one terkapai-kapai sensorang. And still we can laugh to funny things like we did before. That is a miracle of musibah. Allah knows best. 

Harap-harap jugak, aku dapat bagi pendidikan dan kasih sayang yang sewajarnyer pada anak-anak aku especially to my girls. 

And, what ever it is, family first!

Thank you for reading.

#yusufrahimi

Love,

Izrin