Hai gaissss.
Lame la aku tak update blog, nampak sangat kalo pasang azam tu memang susah nak konsisten.
Ahaaaaa. Azam 2021 nak rajin update blog tapi apakan daya!
Wei, it's four day to Ramadhan.
YaAllah, masa tu memang kuat perasaan cemburu die kan.
Rase macam baru Januari, we're in April dah.
Actually, hari ni aku kemas deep freezer.
Clean up stock breastmilk yang actually dah lame expired, cume aku berat hati nak buang.
Bukan senang nak stock up breastmilk sekarang, but looking at those expired breastmilk. Rase sedih sangat la hati aku ni. Buang semua. Luluh jugak hati aku membuang semua tu. Aihhhh. Ade almost 200pax. Most of them 3oz. 😭😭
If people asking me, what really hit me cause of this pandemic Covid.
For me, it's my breastfeeding journey!
This time Allah memang betul2 murah hati. My breastmilk memang super duper banyak. Mase Zahra banyak, kali ni double from what I had before. Tapi tulah, Covid melanda dunia. 3 bulan kite semua "DUDUK RUMAH". Pastu, work from home. So, my deeply thought ini semua rezeki Zahira. She spend most of her growing days at home, with me. Sampai lupe dah kat stock2 breastmilk Zahira. My bad!
Mase tu, aku enjoy je every second spend time ngan anak. Happy la kan. Merasa la jadi surirumah tangga sepenuh masa. huhu. I even had my daily routine. Seronoknyer YaAllah!
Pastu, tibe2 announce kite dah kene kerja, tapi gilir2. Work From Home. At that time, most of my breastmilk nak expired dah. Huhuhu!! Hari keje kite collect, turn WFH, kite leha2 tak collect pun breastmilk. So, new stock tu tak banyak. Sekarang ni, Zahira dah 1 tahun 4 bulan, stock susu sangat critical. She even had to start consume freshmilk. Sebab hari tu try susu Dutch Lady, die nak muntah 😩😩😩😩. Aku dapat bekalkan 2pax of 5oz susu jek. Nangis!
Satu beg plastik besar full dengan plastik2 susu. Susu dah selamat disemadikan.
Trust me. It hurt me so much.
Alhamdulillah, Zahira tak takot mencube foods. Semua die makan especially lauk kite2. Hmmmmm. Syukur for that part. So far, tak nampak jugak die ade ape2 alergy reaction on foods. Ape2 pun kite tawakal aje lah. Sayur die suka, buah pun die ngap. The best part, die suka jugak maruku, kek, coklat dan lain-lain. Part food yang ntah ape2 tu, aku tetap bersyukur jugak la. Walau pun aku tak suke. Ahahahaha.
My breastfeeding journey will continue sampai la anak tanak dah susu aku or sampai takde da milk supply. Macam Zahra, sampai 4tahun die maseh mahu. Ngam aku conceive, kilang pun rehat sekejap. LOL sangat. Mase tu tak tau, kilang rehat kejap sebab nak produce new cycle. Kikiki. Allah kan memang sebaik-baik perancang. Kite cube sedaya upaya nak wean off Zahra sume percubaan gagal. Allah jualah penentu segalanya.
Mesti ramai tanya kenape susah nak stock up susu sekarang?
Aku keje kat frontdesk, most of the time memang kat kaunter. Kaunter aku is an open desk, takde cermin pelindung and sesape pun are free to come and go. So, untuk kerap mengepam memang susah. Plus, aku surrounded by males friends. So, hmmmmm. Banyak kekangan. Malu etc! Dengan jadual mengambil & drop off Zaim setiap hari, aku penat! huhu.
Zahira pulak sementara ni mama yang jaga, one of my grateful part by Covid. So, balik keje memang aku rushing amek tige2 anak. Kebanyakkan mase mengepam adelah sambil driving. Alhamdulillah, memang worth it membeli hands free pump and also thanks to my sister bagi pinjam motor medela freestyle die yang mahal tu. Really helps me thru this challenging journey!
Sebenarnye, in our life, banyak bende yang kite ade dan perlu bersyukur. Even though it is hard, nak telan susah, susah hati everyday but still aku rase banyak lagi bende yang Allah dah mudahkan. Even I reach home at 6pm++ everyday, penat but still I'm glad that I took care of all my kids. Dorang tak penah tido berlapar. My husband willing to considerate on my new routine, die beli foods untuk kami. Homework anak siap before 9pm so they have extra time to bonding a bit, watch TV. Aku manage to wake up at 5am, making breakfast (simple dimple breakfast), manage to prepare bento for zaim. Syukur sangat.
Satu lagi, kene bagitau aku bersyukur anak2 bole ikut rentak to our new routine. Bole dengar cakap. Bole have simple diner. Lebih faham kenapa takleh main basikal setiap petang 😏😏 because most of the time, ibu penat. Aku kalo sampai rumah, memang misi menyiapkan segala bende untuk hari esok before 9pm. So, everyone including myself bole have a good rest. Thank you Allah for giving me a good childrens. One day, I'm sure my triple MZ will read this and understand why for my so many do and don'ts.
I pray that Allah will always guide me, ease my every journey and also for everyone of you who read this. Amin.
Till next time bebeh.
Will share more and more. InshaAllah.
Thank you for readings.
Love,
IzrinAlias
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