Priority

Yesterday was a very tiring day!
Actually, the whole body and mind lately demand loads of rest.
Ntah la nak rest ape lagi.
Weekend ritu pun kemas2 barang sikit pastu terlelap 😪😪
Ntah ape2 la perangai, padahal baru kemas sikit je tuh.
Tau2 jek nuar kejut, die dah balik solat jumaat.
Aku tak masak lagi. Adehhhh.
Terus la nuar soh mandi and makan kat luar jek.

Naseb la Zaim ngan Zahra dah pandai bawak diri.
Ntah ape dua orang tu buat mase aku tido and nuar gi solat Jumaat!

Sekarang ni, hari2 bangun dari tido rase aku terpakse memakse diri untuk bangun.
Ahahaha. Teruk nau eh.
Kalo boleh nak sambung je tido lagi.

Bile kakak aku cakap "ko akan rase berbeza bile preknen di kala usia 30-an.."
Aku cam eleh, yeke.. Kakak aku kate mmg penat nak mateyyyy.
Pastu tibe2 aku preknen kan. Nak jugak experience. Cesh!

Yes, indeed. Apsal la penat sangat skrg.
Mane la energy aku pegi???
Ke aku dah kene sumpah ngan kakak aku ni, kuang asam sungguh!

Why i didn't write in english?
Haah ek.
Sebab ritu aku tengok ade syarat kene tulis blog dalam english, tapi rase bile tulis dalam english cam baik sangat plak..ahahahaha..

Semalam nuar balik, kelam kelibut bukak pintu, bukak kasut terus naik atas muntah!
Aku anak beranak was like 😨😨😧😧. Kesian anak2 aku tengah sembunyik. Selalu babah die sergah sebab die tau la mane anak2 die sorok.
Nuar macam biase la kalo kene camtu, tanya kenapa die cakap "cika.."
Sumpah aku tak penah tau ape bende yang namenyer cika..ahahahaha..Tapi bende tu kerap plak kene kat nuar.

Lepas die dah muntah tu, die terus collapse. Tido.
Aku kejut soh minum air panas jek.
He said he need rest, and ask me to do laundry sbb baju anak2 nak kene rolling.
Aku rolls eyes jelah. 😆😆
Eh, aku buat jugak laundry sbb nnt anak2 takde baju sekolah pulak nak pakai!

Actually, petang tu aku dah layan budak2 ni men basikal.
Yelah, dah lame sangat kurung anak2, tak bagi die men kat luar sbb jerebu kan.
Sesambil tu, aku menyapu la daun2 kering kat porch, biar bersih depan tuh.
Seriously, aku penat. Pinggang sakit. Sebab berdiri and bongkok2 menyapu. Penat!

Masuk dalam, sambung plak memasak.
Semalam masak megi sup, sebab zahra request nak makan dalam mangkuk baby shark die.
So, ok lah. Menu simple paling sedap dalam dunia. Ahahahaha!!
Sambil masak, pakse budak2 mandi!!

Badan ni macam tak sesabar nak baring. Sebab terasa penat yang amat!
Siap ke kemas beg sekolah dorang, bersihkan sinki.
Terus bentang toto ajak anak2 baring.
Ngam kul 10pm. Ngam time anak tido.
Dekat kul 11 gak haaaa tutup TV melayankan Zaim tengok Running Man, selagi tak abes mane boleh tutup TV. Kang muncung aje bujang tuh.

Before tido, sempat la siapkan makan, minum & ubat untuk nuar, just in case die tersedor.
Tak silap, mase aku sedar die tgh duduk makan kat meja tu kul 2am.
Haaaaa bangun pun 😯
Tapi aku tak bangun, just tanya die ok ke tak. Tak larat la serius!

After all this, esok pagi orang tu nak pegi keja lagi.
Ko rase?
Alasan die ade janji ngan orang and ade sukan dalaman 😤😤
Ntah la rase nak marah ke ape, terus aku siap2 and pegi keje.
Kadang aku tak paham orang yang workaholic, dah tau tak sehat pun nak pegi keja..kan?
He should give himself a rest.

Nanti dah sakit, balik rumah kite jugak yang susah hati.
hurmmmm.
Ape aku nak cakap, know you priority!


Love, Izrin!

Better Days!

Hello.
Its been hectic lately.
Life and work.

I've been transfer to another department, way far from where I am before.
In short notice. In shock.

I am okay.
I am just gonna go with the flow.
I believe that everything happen for a reason.
Plus, I need fresh air, well I should given myself the very fresh air to breathe.

For nine years, I'm in my comfort zone, too comfort perhaps.
And, few years back, I have to dealing with myself of my partner whom not so friendly with me.
So, I guess it is okay to make a new friends, and having a new environment.

Alhamdulillah, the new environment not so bad for me.
A warm welcome from everyone including bosses.
There are slightly a miscommunication at first, but everything went well after that.

Ouh, just to share here that I am turning 26weeks pregnant this week.
Heeee Alhamdulillah.
This is the reason why I keep on my mind positive.
I really don't want things that happen to me affected to my little baby inside, the baby had been diagnosed stress while I am having thinking too much.
But, Alhamdulillah, the baby and mother recover after 2 days stay on bed-cation.

Now, I have two things to be taken care of;
Zaim is going to school. Yeay!
And, baby is coming, InshaAllah this coming December.

Please pray for me and the baby till safely delivered.
And, please pray that I am able to witnesses Zaim on his first day to school.
I've been waiting my entire life to see my kids off to school 😩😩

Gonna write soon!

Thank you for reading.

Love, Izrin

July Updates! 😆😆

Hello.

This is me again.

Remember? 😅😅

It's been seven month since Maryam start her schooling day. Alhamdulillah. She is very excellent in her study. Social networking (seriously?). Communicates. Yeap. She is a fast learner. This is what her teacher told me on her report card day. She is hardworking (this one I have to make an objection) 😂😂. But, sure thing, she is a very dramatic lady, especially in the morning. We have to wait for her longgggggg morning shower. 

And, she always has a various morning mood which I have to confront everyday. Ohhh, Maryam!

My big boy, my hero, Zaim. He is now looking more like a man. He is very helpful especially on chores. He would like to help and learn things. He has change a lot from Zaim that we used to know. Alhamdulillah. He did well in his study too. I am glad that he is willing to learn. Yes. We did send him to reading class, since he is not really good in reading, (which some of makcik bawangs think that we are cruel to let him having a class in his 6yo. LOL), but he love his reading class and we, his parents, think that this is the most helpful way of let him preparing himself to primary school. And, yes, we pay his reading class too 😋😋.

Actually, I am very nervous + excited for this coming 2020. So many exciting things that will happen next year. One of the exciting things is Zaim is going to primary school!! Time really flies. I cant even imagine sending him to school. Wow! Life will be hectic next year. Really cant wait!

I dont remember where I have read a quotes that saying " Have you ever realize, whatever Doa that you prayed, Allah will grant to you by times? " Something like that. And I know that, I have once prayed that I wanna know to whom I got married to 😆😆 and, I really wanna know how my children will look like (maybe I dont realise whats the best Doa that I should ask by that time!). Alhamdulillah. Allah the best listener.

Alhamdulillah. My life is loaded with sweet memories and bitter lessons, that makes a perfect duo. I know Allah always know best, the greatest planner. 

Till next time!

Thank you for reading.

Love,

Izrin

hijrah

Dengan Nama Allah Yang Maha Pemurah Lagi Maha Mengasihani.

Recently, I met a friend that I haven't seen for quite a long time. And, we catching up for some updates. I'm glad that she is happily married, with kids. Most of the stories is basically about raising our kids. 

I love meeting people besides having some updates, gossips 😂😂, they actually sharing some good ideas, which I haven't thought before. Credits for me, I like more ideas on raising my kids. As they get older, smarter, I need to be ahead from them! 

Towards the end of our conversation, she ask me "Lain giler weiii ko sekarang. Kenape tibe-tibe berubah?".

Well, "Do I need to go thru something worst  to change?".

She feel guity, then she said NO. ahahahaha.

I know she pointing at my handsocks and sock. Yup.

Yes, I already and trying to hijrah. 

Honestly, nothing really happen to me, that makes me decided to wear handsocks and socks. I kinda feel comfortable now, even it is a lil bit struggle at first. 

I decided to to wear them early 2017. Alhamdulillah. Some of my friends even questioned me about this, I just ignored them. Because I know, istiqomah isn't easy. 

For me, wearing this doesn't mean that I am good enough. And, don't make me good or different or whatsoever! No. But, I try to be one. I am trying to be a good role model to my kids especially to my daughter. So that they know, this is how they suppose to wear and it is really comfortable. Also, I'm not trying to be different, most of my friend, that I know, they already hijrah way before me. Some of them even better, the wore niqab. 

Also, I do notice that, some of my male friends, whom know me years back, they more respect me after hijrah. But still, there are few that don't. Do not worry because some people they don't like or maybe don't know how to respect other people. Rambut kan same hitam, hati lain-lain. So, excuse them.

There are many things that I wish I could change. ie, speak nicely and nice things 🙈🙈😜😜. You know lah, when we out of mind with something/someone, we talk rubbish. Not we, ME! LOL. I really wanted to be a good person, May Allah ease my hijrah and bless with strong istiqomah. And, May Allah send me a good accompany, friends to make my hijrah more beautiful. Amin.

But, I am still the same person, inshaAllah. 

Do pray for me!

Love,

Izrin

8th Anniversary. Yeay!

Dengan Nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Mengasihani.

Alhamdulillah. We just pass the sweet eight years of our marriage. I thank Allah for every moment that He let us spend well together. Every laughter. Every tears. Somethimes, it seems impossible to go thru but amazingly, we still together. Yeayy!

In marriage, nothing can be perfect. But the imperfection makes everything perfect.

I pray Allah will and forever will bless our beautiful marriage, inshaAllah. May Allah lead us to His Jannah, let us be a good Muslim, protect our heart and soul. May we able to raise our children well and happy. Amin. InshaAllah.

Love,
Izrin

We Still Here!!

Dengan Nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah Lagi Maha Mengasihani.

Its always been so long that i didn't post anything in here. I always have some thought to share but then it will stop half way. And, I close. And, I never return 😅😅. Since blogging is not so trendy anymore, and I've been babbling to myself only. Well, I think it is good to be back!

Hooray for Maryam Zahra because she has been sent to school at the age of 4 early this year. This is not the best decison that we want. We were forced to made. Unless she has a very good explaination on why she keep on cying and throwing tantrums every single day. Everyday to her sitter house. Phewwww. If you read this one day, lil girl, please let me know the answer if you can recall. ahahahaha.

I always keep myself together that she is just throwing tantrums for some attentions. But, some of my friends, they give me a slight curiousity that there's might be something that bothering her and she actually trying to hint me. After few months, of these dramatic and chaos morning, we decided to send her to school. 

Alhamdulillah, everything seems okay. It's already in February and we never have to see tearing and tantrums session in the morning. Hope things will be just fine. we glad that she likes her school and teacher, oh, and friends.

Muhammad Zaim is already in his final year of kindergarten. Mehh. 😏😏 Alhamdulillah. He is a good boy. Manja sangat, this part i can't tolatare. Sometimes he likes when we carrying him, he doesn't know we were half dead carrying him with almost 25kg weight. YaAllah! Beras pun 10kg. ahahahaha. It is hard to kiss him, he started to feel shy especially in fornt of his teacher. Tapi kalo kat rumah, he likes to be cuddle. My manja boy. 

Alhamdulillah, Mama and Abah in a very good health. We often spend time together, eating and sometimes going for short vacay. Mama decided to end her service in government sector last year. She stay at home looking after cucu, Yusuf. Well, Abah will be soon reach his time limit. Still figure out his activities upon retirement. 

We? we still servicing in government sector. Digging some gold for early retirement too 😂😂

This is our latest version, holiday in Melaka. looking forward for many more vacation!! Thank you Allah for this beautiful bunch of people. 

Thank you for reading.

Love,

Izrin.